Let's Play Dolls

When I was growing up I really didn't take advantage of the opportunity that I had to play with dolls. I am the oldest of 3 girls, you would think I had plenty of practice. Instead I was outside playing with the boys or believe it or not - playing in the mud trying to catch frogs. I know I can't believe that I admitted that to the entire blog world. Thank goodness I have seen the light & changed. So, this week I dug out all of HG's baby dolls & sat them on my bed. I can't wait until I can sit in the floor & play with my girl. NO BOYS ALLOWED!!! At least for a little while. I want them to play with her. I want them to teach her what Godly men are supposed to be about. I want her big brothers to be her knights in shining armor to point her to Christ. Selfishly, I long for a little princess time that will be sweet & dainty, with no fighting, battles, or dirt. "Can I get a witness?"
Sorry for the rambling. I am a little down this week. We are coming upon our 2 year LID anniversary with no end in sight. (I believe this is what is sparking it: I am very happy for some friends of ours. BUT, they will be leaving in 2 weeks to pick up their adorable son. As I think about all that has happened in this journey, I pray for their safety & unbelievably at the same time I stand here very jealous that I can't go with them. We have been waiting together & now I feel like they are leaving us behind. I know it's crazy & it's in God's perfect timing, but I am tired.) We are still praying about concurrent adoptions but we haven't found peace with that yet. I am beginning to believe that it will come after HG. Once again, we'll have to wait to see if that is God's will or our impatience taking a toll on our senses.
Time to go put up all the dolls & put on my "Patience" hat again. UGH!!!