Last Night

I hesitate from even posting this, but this little blog is my personal diary that I will save (parts of) to show HG the incredible journey that brought us to her. And I sense this one could be long. Just skip us today if you need to. I will probably put up a new post rather quickly anyway.
From the very beginning I wanted one little princess that could be spoiled beyond belief by her big brothers. The longer this voyage takes, the more I feel differently. The thought of HG growing up alone just breaks my heart. I know she won't be alone, but in a way she will be. As of right now, there will be at least 10 years difference in her & E and it could stretch further. For the last year or so I have been searching many other options trying to figure out what exactly God is calling for us to do. I have researched other countries, concurrent adoptions, even domestic placements. My heart gets burdened more & more for the orphans that are out there without a mommy or daddy to love on them.
Yesterday a friend mentioned something to me that even in brief passing conversation, I believe God was once again speaking to reassure my feelings. I was just chatting with an adoption buddy & she mentioned Ethiopia. Now, I have thought about that country many times. I have had reservations due to the social climate that we call the South. I have come to the conclusion that I really don't care what anyone thinks. We are going to be a transracial family anyway, so why not be as colorful as God has made this beautiful planet? ;0) Back to the story, I told Andy about my conversation & just left it at that.
Last night as the dust was settling & the day was just about over, I came back here to my ritual of this computer. I had just been reading my bible study in Rev. 2:8-11 concerning the church in Smyrna. I am desperately trying to do what God wants. For so long it has been what I want, now I am trying to listen.
Well, Andy comes in & starts talking. Now, don't get me wrong on all this, we talk about the adoption, but for many things we don't get too deep because Andy doesn't want to think about this wait. He actually "goes on with his life" like our SW advised. About once a month he gets an update & then goes on his little merry way. (I am so jealous of that.) He brings up Ethiopia & to my shock & complete amazement he tells me he's been praying about the possibility of more than one. He doesn't have a peace either way right now, which is okay by me. I am just floored to know he's been thinking about it & that God is working. I don't know if this will ever amount to anything but right now I am paying attention. Am I crazy to even think of another adoption before we are even close with the first one? YES. Do we have the money for another adoption? NO. What is our family going to say? DON'T HAVE A CLUE. Will we be obedient? YES.
I know we are still supposed to stay with China. For some reason Asia has my heart. Who knows maybe we'll be blessed with 2 Asian princesses (yes, I have looked over many countries & I know which ones we qualify & which ones we don't) or better yet, maybe we'll be a beautiful & colorful family when God gets finished with us. Last night I couldn't sleep. All this was swirling around in my head. That is one reason why I had to post this, I don't want to forget this step. For whatever reason, this is part of the journey. We will understand one day, hopefully sooner than later. (Just so everyone knows, I have always known what I would do if I won the lottery. I will buy a HUGE piece of land, build a HUMONGOUS house & fill it with all the children that I could possibly love. ;0)
Okay. So that's what is going on in my life for today. We'll keep praying, I'll keep researching, & I'll let you know as soon as I know something.

"To Him be the glory..."