Our Color Blind Life

Evidentally a lot of our friends knew that God is working on us with this adoption. I don't remember a time when I have had so many questions about little HG. But, I do thank you for those prayers. So, I thought I would send my thoughts "out there." Even if no one was to ever read this, somehow it's therapeutic. But, as always, I know many of you regulars will tell me that you saw this. It's really humbling to think that all of you read my blog. (I am sure there are many other things that you could be doing that is more important than my constant rambling.)

As far as our journey goes, we still have a long way to go. Our agency has now "officially" announced that they will be matching their special needs children off of the "shared list." Basically, China has set up this list on a computer that they frequently add children for people to adopt. I am hopeful that this new system will find homes for more waiting children, but I don't know how it will affect us. It could speed up our process, or it could slow it down. Right now we are praying about how to fill out our paperwork. We basically have to tell our agency what special needs that we would be interested in accepting. Then when children are placed on the portal, they will do the matching along with about 50 other agencies. We could be matched sooner than if we waited it out, but because we are being very selective in our list people who started way after us, could end up in China sooner, thus pushing us farther back to wait. Overall, I am very excited that in the end, this new system will bring more children home. But, in this not so perfect world that we live in, there are down sides. Some agencies have the staff to allow someone to view the portal at all times. Right now, I don't know for sure how our agency is going to handle it. It will be interesting to watch. (I am in no way slamming our agency - I still haven't had the opportunity to even discuss all this with our social worker.) I know from others out there, that more children were placed on the list last Sunday & many families "got the call." I am very excited for them, but I wonder about all of us with christian agencies that are closed some days of the week. I know I am letting all the little details get to me & I shouldn't. I KNOW THAT GOD IS IN CONTROL. I know He will give us HG in His perfect timing. It's just very difficult to see the big picture when I have so many things right in front of me blocking my view.
So, there it is. We are praying about what to do with this list. Who knows. We may get matched early & we may end up waiting it out. Only God knows, but I am sure that it will all be worth it when we get to hold her & never let go.

Here's some really pretty pics of our daughter's beautiful homeland. I can't wait to go see it in person, instead of through pictures. -Charity